Scrapbook (2010)

 

1. Welcome to the Show!

2. Little Speckles on the TV Screen

3. The Singers!

4. Dragoness

5. Ghost of an Ex-Boyfriend

6. Reality

7. Chicago

8. The Nothing

9. Valerie (You Are Loved)

10. Sabrina, etc.

11. Drama Queen

12. Sensitivity is a Disability

13. About "What God Intended"

14. What God Intended

15. Masterpiece

16. Straight to Your House

17. Mr. Moneybags

18. About "Masterpiece"

19. Masterpiece

20. About "Follow the Moon"

21. Follow the Moon

22. Discussion of "Determined"

23. Discussion of "November Walk"

24. Discussion of "The Nothing"

2. Little Speckles on the TV Screen

Music and Lyrics by John Paul Sharp

Piano performed by Paul Michael Escalante

 

What do you remember from

That fateful day of death and doom?

I remember bodies falling from the sky

Like tears of blue.

 

Did you see it?

Little Speckles On the TV Screen?

Are the Spirits

of the Towers --

Are they wondering --

 

Why we never seemed to learn?

A thing of hope and fear of amends.

Looking down from heaven,

Are they shaking heads and wringing hands?

 

Getting ready

For another

Major hate attack?

It’s no matter

If it happens again,

But when it comes

 

Back to haunt us.

Back to haunt us.

Back to haunt us again.

 

What’s your problem?

Don’t just sit there,

Get up on your feet!

See the problem?

Let’s go protest!

Get out on the streets!

 

When will we learn that war is wrong?

This global home of ours is sacred.

I’d have never dreamed that I would

Live in such a world of complacence.

4. Dragoness

Music and Lyrics by John Paul Sharp

Performed by University of Colorado Denver singers

 

Do you believe

In mystic things?

In times of kings gone by?

Trees that cry?

Winds that sigh on a full moon's night?

 

In one past life

I could fly to the highest of highs in the sky

I could swim in the deepest of deep oceans

And in this light

I can only begin to describe what it's like

To be living the life of a dragoness

 

I used to be

So wild and free

I set the streets on fire

To inspire

Knights for hire in search of me and my scaly feet

 

In one past life

I could fly to the highest of highs in the sky

I could swim in the deepest of deep oceans

And in this light

I can only begin to describe what it's like

To be living the life of a dragoness

 

Lonely days and boring nights

I'd rather take a flight to far off lands

Like I used to in the good ole days when dragons were real

And you could touch and feel them … that was me …

 

In one past life

I could fly to the highest of highs in the sky

I could swim in the deepest of deep oceans

And in this light

I can only begin to describe what it's like

To be living the life of a dragoness

5. Ghost of an Ex-Boyfriend

Music and Lyrics by John Paul Sharp

 

My ghost of an ex-boyfriend,

He knows what’s in the next dimension.

He goes every where I go.

 

And 1st Corinthians has been with me since the end of his life.

And 1st Corinthians will haunt me ‘till the end of time.

 

What can I do to cancel this devotion?

I’m through with living in slow motion.

I’ve tried to say all my goodbyes!

 

He follows me around and wallows in the sound of my voice.

He sits atop my bed and watches me undress …

 

Oh God, come tell this man why he must understand

Oh God, come take this man away as fast as you can

Oh, we are no longer to be!

For I am alive

And he is dead.

 

When love carries over to the other side,

Just be wary of the one who died,

If he can’t let go!

Can’t let go!

 

What can I do to cancel this devotion?

I’m through with living in slow motion.

I’ve tried to say all my goodbyes!

 

And 1st Corinthians has been with me since the end of his life.

And 1st Corinthians will haunt me ‘till the end of time

End of time

End of

Time.

6. Reality

Music and Lyrics by John Paul Sharp

Guitar performed by Steve Varney

 

i've been thinkin' about a way to give my life a jump-start

i've been lookin' for a place where I can follow my heart

this reality was fun, but I think i'm done for now

 

I wanna' be on a reality show

I wanna' see what's really goin' on with me

 

love a challenge while the world is watching, living in rooms

get off balance to see if I am truly capable too

this could really be my thing - this could be my new dream for now

 

I wanna' be on a reality show

I wanna' see what's really goin' on with me

5. Chicago

Music and Lyrics by John Paul Sharp

 

try and relate to you

you don't hear a thing, you're not listening

all you want to do is teach

as though I can't see

as though i'm incapable

all I can say is that we're wasting our time

 

and by tomorrow, I'll be in Chicago

take these sorrows

 

don't get me wrong

it's not like I don't have faults all of my own

i just thought you had some too

oh what did I do?

what makes me incapable?

well, I guess that it will have to wait

 

'cause by tomorrow, I'll be in Chicago

take these sorrows

 

everything will be fine

i'll be back in a week or so

for myself, I must find a better day

i'll be back in a week

'cause you don't care about me

for myself I must find a better day

 

and by tomorrow, I'll be in Chicago

take these sorrows

 

and by tomorrow, I'll be in Chicago

take these sorrows and leave 'em behind

8. The Nothing

Music and Lyrics by John Paul Sharp

 

if I drink one more, i'll be hitting the floor

i'm having a problem chasing these blues away

if it's not one thing, it's another, oh boy

tears may fall like rain, but i'll be back up again and again

I could disappear for good

 

up all night from hitting the pipe - yikes

i'm having a problem connecting the dots today

it's it's not one thing, it's a cover, oh boy

try to hide my face, but i'll get back there again and again

I could disappear for good, for good, for good, good

i'm misunderstood, again

 

good to be here, though I think it is queer

i'm having a problem - the demons are just at bay

there is The Nothing to discover

nothing to take away, but i'd go back there again and again

'cause I could disappear for

I could disappear for

I could disappear for good

9. Valerie (You Are Loved)

Music and Lyrics by John Paul Sharp

Performed by the University of Colorado Denver singers

 

she was so popular

she was so cool

she was the best friend of everyone she knew

but things were different in her own mind

she saw the world as cruel and so unkind

how our lives can be a lie

it's a shame that she was right

 

Valerie, Valerie, you are loved

you are loved so much by everybody

and everyone that you touched

you are loved, you are loved

 

she was my sister

she'll always be

and now, my angel, as she watches over me

so get your drinks up and sing along

so that my sister really knows that she belonged

it's a shame that she is gone

well, I hope she hears this song

 

Valerie, Valerie, you are loved

you are loved so much by everybody

and everyone that you touched

you are loved, you are loved

 

Valerie, Valerie, you are loved

you are loved so much by everybody

and everyone that you touched

you are loved, so rest in peace

11.  Drama Queen

Music and Lyrics by John Paul Sharp

 

No matter if I scream of if I shout,

Nobody listens.

Nobody ever tries to hear me out

To what I’m all about.

I’m feeling so ignored!

I’m feeling downright bored with this behavior!

 

They say the reason why is that I cry

To get attention.

Believe me when I say that I could die!

And did I mention,

Two little dreadful words some one said to hurt my feelings even more?

 

Oh, Drama Queen! Oh, Drama Queen!

Drama Drama Drama Drama

Save the Drama for your Mama!

That is all I hear from people!

Oh, Drama Queen! Oh, Drama Queen!

Drama Drama Drama Drama

Maybe I can save my momma,

Only if you’d give me one more chance!

 

Gimme’ one more chance!

 

I’ll get it right without a fight and

If you don’t let me try, I might just have to cry once more again!

Cry once more again!

12. Sensitivity is a Disability

Music and Lyrics by John Paul Sharp

 

I want you to know that I

I'm ready to go

'cause this old world is gettin' to me

sensitivity seems to be a disability (ha ha ha)

 

I don't understand why you think that
I should close my eyes

ignore the weight of the worrisome land

I don't understand

for that's the day that I die (bu-bu-bye, my friend)

 

you think that I'll lose my mind but
I prefer to unearth my view

keep chewin' your carbamazapine

I'll just be quietly screaming

finding places to hide

places in another time

and so, until I get it right (la-la-la)

 

don't be surprised

everything will be just fine

I'm off to Heaven's Gate

and please don't cry

everything will be just fine

I'm off to Heaven's Gate

 

14. What God Intended

Music and Lyrics by John Paul Sharp

 

I was chillin’ in my little haze,

then this lady went and then she came

and she said, "What ya’ doin' in that little nook?

Whatcha’ doin' with that little book?"

and I said “Gettin' fucked up on philosophy.

I’m gonna' figure out the mystery,

the magical form

of mind over matter,

where nothing really happens anymore.”

 

And she said, "You don't need a book to give you that

and I'm as sure of that as sure as I shat this morning.

Let us break the wind and try to relax!

Don't give in to all those high class acts and notions!

What you want is how you get your kicks.

Without your kicks your life ain't worth a shit

and we, as humans, are allowed to heal,

and we were born to touch and feel.”

 

So then she kissed my face; made it tickle.

I felt so out of place; in a pickle.

"This is what God intended -

gave us wounds so we would tend them."

That's what she said and then she belched.

 

(Whew! I mean - Ugh!)

 

6 a.m. alarm is ringing at last.

Time I spent to dream I spent too fast, my friend.

I realize the time and get my ass in gear and

figure out a way to pass the test.

My old thinking might have gotten the best - yes -

my old Dream King might have gotten the best of

me and Mary,

Mary and I …

… but I'm not like this all the time.

15. and 19. Masterpiece

Music and Lyrics by John Paul Sharp

 

time is like a river

it's not on our side

it finds the path of least resistance

it's all in our minds

love encourages

love inspires us to live our lives

 

don't forget to thank the people

people who have built you up

don't forget to thank yourself

for taking your canvas

and coloring up

here's to what we do

here's to all we do

to love ourselves

 

'cause we are a painting

ev'ry thing we say and do becomes a color

reds, greens, blues, and yellows

and all that is called 'the in-between"

you are a masterpiece

 

when thing's are lookin' grey

maybe there's too much black and white

it's so easy to doubt to yourself

to think you don't belong

well, you are wrong, my friend

you're wrong

you are no worse

no better

than the rest

you're one of the best

 

there is nothing worse

when you neither laugh nor cry

life ends once you decide you can't create

so get out there and paint

 

'cause we are a painting

ev'ry thing we say and do becomes a color

reds, greens, blues, and yellows

and all that is called 'the in-between"

you are a masterpiece

16. Straight to Your House

Music and Lyrics by John Paul Sharp

 

I sure could use a break

I’ve had about as much as I can take

And I’d give anything

To see you again

Yes, I’d do anything

‘Cause I’m your number one fan

It’s you I want to apprehend

Until the end of the line

 

If you come back to me

I promise

I won’t just throw it away

I’ll give it all that I got

For just one more shot

I got a ticket to a train that goes straight to your house

 

Ten thousand times I’ve gone and died

Since I reached out and you replied

I know you don’t know me

Like I now know you

With all that you’ve shown to be

Now I know what I want to do

Calm, collected and cool,

I’m on the hunt for you

 

If you come back to me

I promise

I won’t just throw it away

I’ll give it all that I got

For just one more shot

I got a ticket to a train that goes straight to your house

 

To your house, yeah, yeah, To your house

 

If you come back to me

I promise

I won’t just throw it away

I’ll give it all that I got

For just one more shot

I got a ticket to a train that goes straight to your house

17. Mr. Moneybags

Music and Lyrics by John Paul Sharp and Paul Michael Escalante

Piano performed by Paul Michael Escalante

 

save a little each month and you might be surprised

you might be surprised at just how little that you have

bet your bottom dollar you will lose in your investment

maybe it would be a good idear to rob the bank

 

mr. moneybags, the friend I never had

won't you pour upon the rain

numb the pain with cold hard cash

 

let's buy items that we can't afford to feel better

dig our graves with fancy plots so far beyond our means

maybe they won't have such proper credit checks in heaven

more than likely an investigation dropped from hell

 

mr. moneybags, the friend I never had

won't you pour upon the rain

numb the pain with cold hard cash

 

a penny here and a penny there

a penny spent is a penny burned

a dollar here and a dollar there

one less thing that I have to care about

 

lack of money is the root of everything that is evil

or so I heard a gentleman with money once say

if I had a lot of money, I would go and spend it

to know the luxury of giving it all away

 

mr. moneybags, the friend I never had

won't you bring upon the rain

numb the pain with cold hard cash

 

cold hard cash, cold hard cash

cold hard cash, cold hard cash

21. Follow the Moon

Music and Lyrics by John Paul Sharp

 

love is a comet in the sky

it feels good most of the time

but it hurts and hits hard

 

I am in love with you tonight

I don't know if its wrong or right

but I want you to know

 

I hope you find what you're lookin' for

I believe you'll get what you need

but either way, I'll be there for you

tell you what - we'll follow the moon

 

you can't be forced to love me too

so i'll be a friend to you

until then, here I am

 

I will be here by your side

thick and thin, you can confide

and I want you to know

 

I hope you find what you're lookin' for

I believe you'll get what you need

but either way, I'll be there for you

tell you what - we'll follow the moon